boomshamegan

And realize....this is your life.



  Next week. Is. Pretty much. The last week that I will ever have to do high school work. EVER.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. You dont know how happy that makes me. Pretty sure ive already decided that im not doing any work all of next week, either...but hey oh well. The best part is that its parent approved. :] Mom says: "Oh its cool. B's are fine" when i tell her im not doing any more of my work and probably failing the next few tests. ahh. Gotta love her.


Not even gonna complain or even write about prom.
...
Yet.

I am sick.
In case anyone was wondering.

From the tangles of .. my heart.


{The lights just went off and on and off and on...And then did this pinkish/purpleish tint thingy and went out again..it was insane.}

Life.
Is.
So.
Hard/complicated/wonderful/exciting/repetitive/new/exciting/scary/emotional/crazy/full.

There is so MUCH.
There is so little.

But its worth every second.

Its safe to say.
That.
God.Family.Friends.Richard.
Make life--LIFE.

So.
:D
Megan Wood has fallen in love.
Yeahhh.
Its pretty insane, I agree.
But its happening.

God has been amazing to me lately.
My sugar has been pretty manageable.
I've been feeling pretty good. 
God is amazing.
AmAzInG.

I'm still not sure whats gonna happen college wise.
Or anything like that.
But I know that God is going to handle it.
He won't leave me out to dry.
He'll be there.
Through it all.

So yeah. Thats my life.
Right now.

Dude.
I got flowers.
A bouquet of pinkish white roses.
And a single red rose.
And a card.
:]

A day late, yes.

But hey. He did good.


I'll edit later dudes.

Muah.

Paige Baker.
Made me go to Dnow this weekend.

And im so-freaking-glad.

I loved it. It was pretty much exactly what i needed. 
I laughed. A lot. I was hyper. I was peaceful.
I was surrounded by people who love Jesus in an amazing way.

Seeing 18/19 year old guys praise God at the top of their voices.
Yeah. Thats what life is about.
I dont even feel like i was worthy to be there.
But im so so so so so glad that i went.

:]

still im singing spirit take me up in arms with you.

If you dont know whats going on.
You dont count.
I mean you count in thebig scheme.
But this doesnt apply to you.
:] i mean that in the nicest way possible.

i have a need.
its retarded.
and comes with a "sure-to-fail" sticker.
but i have it.

i have a need to save people. and paige was right. thats God's job. and hes gonna take me right off my pedestal and take it back.

he can do this. i can do this. this requires more strength than i think i have. im not as strong as i thought i was. i fall easy. just as easy as the girls that im disgusted with. but this is real. this is absolutely part of life right now. im addicted to this situation. addicted. and im scared that im never gonna get out. but as of right now. its nice to feel needed. its nice to be a part of something bigger than myself. it-is-scary.

paige, keyle, emily. i love you. youve been there for me more this weekend than i think ive ever been there for you. and im sorry. graduation comes and were gonna have to split our ways. but yall are stuck with me. theres no way im ever gonna just forget about yall or let yall get off easily. :] t-h-a-n-k-y-o-u.

i am not who i thought i was.
still im singing spirit take me up in arms with you.
see im not copping out.
when youre raising the dead in me.--switchfoot